What does a submissive feel in subspace?

by Catalina, 2002

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Each answer will be as individual and different as we have people. Here is my answer: I have different experiences depending on the day, the phase of the moon, my hormonal cycle, or the person I am with.

If it has been a very long time since my last experience, I can go into what I can only describe as a craving phase. I can feel the hazy edges wanting to close in on me and an indescribable itch that I *think* might be similar to someone that has an addiction. At this time just talking on the subject (practically any subject in regard to the lifestyle) can send me into a half trance-like state. My speech will slow down or become slurred. My gait will be like someone drunk. I know when it is happening and can pull myself out of it with concentration or I can take a nap to clear my head.

Pulling myself out of it when necessary is not fighting off the state, its just circumstances at the time. What if I'm driving a car and having a discussion with a friend? I'm at work. Kids come home from a night out. Naturally I cannot just let go and go into some trance-like state. Sometimes the dominant doesn't even realize what's happening and needs to go, has some other things on their mind, or generally isn't paying attention. You better bet I'll pull myself out. I might bounce off a few walls or stumble but I manage to shake it off.

Next is, during a scene. Yes, you're there, the dominant is there and the stage is set. Still, all depends on mood. Lets say everything is right and you begin to fly. I see different levels sometimes within the same session. A light trance-like state is one. Within this state, I don't hear much sound except the voice of the person I am with. I become non-verbal other than unintelligible sounds. If asked a question I have to think hard to make my mouth form words to respond. Sensations seem to be like ripples on a pond. Touch one spot and it echoes all through me. In this light state, I can be easily pulled out by a sharp pain or a sudden disturbance.

Now is not the time to try to negotiate with me. That should have been done way in advance because at this time I am not able to think clearly enough to say lets move on to something more. This is where trust in the dominant is paramount.

The deeper state is most dangerous for me. My responses are more on an animal level. Again, non-verbal, I have even stopped breathing. I can hear and respond to commands like BREATHE! At this time, my will is not my own. I may even become sexually aggressive. I will be depending on the dominant to be honorable in every way. My memory will be about the sensations not the surroundings. I can go so deep into subspace that I have to be literally called back. Calling my name will do it if you call several times. Loud clapping of your hands and commanding me to do something I cannot do will also bring me out. For instance, if I am bound, tell me to stand or move. At this time, do not just turn me loose and expect me to manage on my own. I may hurt myself by falling. I am definitely not in a position to drive a car. This is when a short nap is probably the best thing for me. Even if I nap, please make sure when I awaken that I am fully alert and in charge of my own faculties. Your powers of observation are most important because I may think I am okay when I am not.

A submissive puts a large amount of trust in any dominant they play with. I hope my thoughts and reactions have helped dominants out there to understand better what goes on in 'subspace' and the level of responsibility they are taking on when they want to play on a deeper level.

My life may be in your hands. Play safe.
Respectfully,
Catalina

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